Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Personal Post: In Loving Memory of Aurora Larson

Last year was a year of both great and sad things for me. I had so much going on so fast that I lacked inspiration and the drive to pick up my camera and shoot as often as I usually do. Although I celebrated a big triumph in my life by swearing in as a new CPA that year, I was in the middle of a very stressful situation at work while I was pregnant with my second child. I was under a lot of stress which I thought was partly the cause of my pregnancy complication. And about the same time last year, while 5 months pregnant, I had a bittersweet memory of going back to California for a visit with my then 3 year old daughter and mother. My aunt Aurora who was suffering from a grave infection had passed away suddenly, and we flew immediately to pay our final respects.

I had lived in the San Francisco Bay Area for 8 years before moving to Texas. I had only visited San Diego about 3 times in my life, but it holds a special place in my heart. Each time I visit, I always looked forward to seeing my relatives. My Aunt Jane, cousin, niece and I would visit Auntie "Auring" and tell stories and laugh all day. Even though that's all we ever did, we were always happy. You never really miss something so much until its gone. I wish I had more chances to visit and see her and my cousins more and have the opportunity to introduce my daughter. But even under the circumstances, my trip was not totally a sad one. For the first time, I had brought my daughter to see the beach. She laughed and giggled a lot, splashed in the water and didn't want to leave. I could clearly remember that she kept yelling "the waves are coming!". Until this day, whenever she sees a photo of the beach, she still says "the waves are coming!".

I didn't bring my camera for this trip. I didn't think it was an occassion worth bringing it for. I never really expected the trip to end on a very sweet note. So, I ended up purchasing a cheap CVS disposable camera, and to my surprise, I was able to capture the ONLY memories I have of my little girl at the beach for the first time. Not only that, but I have a photo of myself with little Sofia in my belly at 18 weeks :-)